Becoming a Whole Person

What does it mean to be a whole person. A lot of us like to think that we are, when in fact we are hollow. After my last failed relationship, I decided to get better and not bitter. I feel that resentment and ego is a cancer to the soul. I will be blogging about my journey to not only become a whole person, but to love radically. I will also be sharing my progress and experiences a long the way. However, you may not like what you read. Remember, I'm only sharing what I have learned about myself. I'm not trying to force anything on others. Everybody is different, and we should celebrate that about each other.

For those of you who are reading this that believe in God (notice I didn't name a specific religion) What do you pray for? I Have prayed for many things in my life. One of the main objects of my prayer time has always been to know God better, and to be molded after him, and to be dangerous like his son Jesus. I have surrendered everything in my life to him. Not to many people can understand this.

I am starting to become aware of my silly ego-needs, and I have realized that no one can fulfill them. It's because of my ego I have aloud myself to go from failed relationship to failed relationship. At the end of every relationship I would analyze where I went wrong. Analysis in my life has always substituted for understanding and leads me to worry, and doubt, and doubt will in turn lead to confusion, emotion, depression and despair. I know I needed a change in my life. A change that can only come from within. I'm doing this to discover my true self rather then to feel better. I know I will learn things about myself I'm not going to like, but I'm tired of making excuses for my shortcomings. I have the choice to be the man I was meant to be.

The most important thing I hope to experience is repentance, which for me will be a sad gladness when I see myself in the light, and I see my ego as part of the problem.

The first thing I have to learn is true love does not expect anything from anyone. I had to stop and think about that for a moment. Can I really love myself and others the way God loves us? Is it even possible? There's only one way to find out.